Before my conversion, my wife was frequently bothered by the devil, so I bought a Bible to protect her against evil spirits. But we simply placed it on our bedside without reading it.
At the end of one summer, after I retired from my position in the government, I wanted to earn a fortune in Guangzhou due to the economic pressure from my four children's educational expenses and mortgage. Turning to God for guidance, I got permission and headed to Guangzhou, where I was baptized into Christ at Dongshan Church. Subsequently, I served in the church's choir and attended a one-year theology class in Beijing in 2016.
In the first year after my conversion, I read the entire Bible. However, I became lax in keeping this practice and even committed unholy sins in the following years, leaving my spirit without peace.
In March 2021, I was diagnosed with lung cancer, which was difficult and unfair to accept, as I had not yet enjoyed my retirement benefits nor had I witnessed the establishment of families for my children.
Later, I realized that my mind was spinning over myself, but not a thought of God. I had committed to serving on the podium after retirement, something I felt was unlikely to be completed in two years because I hadn't practiced my devotional life in years or dedicated my life to Jesus.
After my first hospitalization for chemotherapy, I found that my condition had deteriorated. I turned to pray, "Lord, regardless of the time you let me live, I will keep my promise to you, strive to maintain my spiritual practices, and be ready to serve you as long as I live."
In that month, the price of anti-cancer drugs was greatly cut, and they were covered by medical insurance. I felt filled with the Holy Spirit. I rarely prayed, but at that time, I prayed, confessed my sins, and expressed gratitude. Two months later, a follow-up test showed that the brain metastases had vanished. After I was discharged from the hospital, I continued to take medication while fervently praying for healing. Additionally, fellow believers also prayed for me. Later, it turned out that the tumor in my lung also disappeared.
After that, I established a worship chat group on WeChat. I invited some Christian women who had visited me. Among them were devout believers, from whom I learned spiritual practices.
Beginning in May 2021, I insisted on writing a morning prayer and engaging in devotional practices every morning until the end of March the following year.
At the same time, I led Bible studies in the chat group twice a week. Before each study, I dedicated one to two days to thorough preparation, constantly reviewing information and praying. I would first comprehend the scriptures myself, understand every keyword, and connect the scriptures to real-life situations.
In the past few years, as I ventured out for work, my focus was on material pursuits, with the pride of life deep within me. After the 2022 Spring Festival, I applied for a job at a medical aesthetics institution in Guangxi Province, but my motivation for working altered due to tense relationships within my marriage and with my children. As a result, I had to leave home and venture out into the world on my own again. The second motivation is my desire to acquire a luxurious car for an easier spread of the gospel, yet there was still the "pride of life."
In May of that year, I ended my work away from home and returned to my hometown, as my mother was ill and hospitalized. I know that the Lord didn’t grant me a luxurious car, but due to the epidemic and the increase in gasoline prices, a car was sold to me at a good price, which I attributed to the grace of the Lord. At the same time, I resumed deepening my spiritual practice at home.
(The article was originally published by the Gospel Times and the author is a Christian in Jiangsu.)
- Translated by Poppy Chan
我信仰前，因为妻子常被魔鬼搅扰，所以我买了一本《圣经》为了辟邪。但我们都没看，只是放在床头。
一个夏末，我从体制内退二线后，因为有四个孩子读书以及房贷的压力，我想去广州挣钱， 求问了神。得到应允后，我就去了广州，在东山堂受洗归主。之后在诗班侍奉，2016年在北京进行一年的神学班学习。
归主之后的第一年，我通读了一遍《圣经》。后来的几年里，读经就变得懒惰了；却犯了不圣洁的罪，让我的灵魂不得安宁。
2021年3月我查出肺部癌症，我不甘心，因为还没享受退休工资和见证孩子结婚生子。
后来，我醒悟了。我想的都是自己，唯独没有想到上帝。我曾许愿退休后去讲台侍奉，却因多年疏于灵修，也不行正道。还有不到两年的时间，凭什么做讲道服侍呢？
我在第一次住院化疗后，发现病情加重了，便祷告：“主啊，无论你让我活多久，我要在活着的时候，按照我和你的约定，抓紧灵修，做好侍奉的准备。”
当月，抗癌药大降价而且进入医保，我感到被圣灵充满，很少祷告的我，那时候祈求、认罪、感恩。两个月后，复查结果显示脑转移消失了。出院后，一边吃药，一边祷告求医治，其他信徒也为我代祷。后来检查肺部肿瘤消失了。
之后，我组建了一个微信敬拜群。邀请来我家看望我的一些姊妹进群，她们当中有灵修很好的信徒，是我学习的对象。
从2021年5月开始，我坚持每早上写一篇晨祷文和灵修，持续到第二年3月底。
同时每周两个晚上，在群里主持查经。每一次备课，我都要花上一到两天，不断查阅资料以及祷告。我会自己先明白经文，弄懂每一个关键词，同时要联系实际生活。
我之前外出的几年里，主要的目的是挣钱，有着今生的骄傲在骨子里。2022年春节后，我应聘到广西一家医美机构，但是挣钱的目的改变了，因为夫妻关系和亲子关系变得紧张，因此，我必须离开家，再度单身闯世界。第二个原因是想买豪华的车以便传福音，但是也有“今生的骄傲”的因素。
当年的5月，我结束了在外打工，回到了老家，因为我母亲生病住院了。我知道是主不让我买豪华些的车，但是因着疫情和汽油涨价，一款代步车低价出售给我了，这车主给我的。同时，我也在家继续专心灵修。
注：本文为特约/自由撰稿人文章，作者系江苏一名基督徒。
癌症晚期患者的见证：主是医治的神
Before my conversion, my wife was frequently bothered by the devil, so I bought a Bible to protect her against evil spirits. But we simply placed it on our bedside without reading it.
At the end of one summer, after I retired from my position in the government, I wanted to earn a fortune in Guangzhou due to the economic pressure from my four children's educational expenses and mortgage. Turning to God for guidance, I got permission and headed to Guangzhou, where I was baptized into Christ at Dongshan Church. Subsequently, I served in the church's choir and attended a one-year theology class in Beijing in 2016.
In the first year after my conversion, I read the entire Bible. However, I became lax in keeping this practice and even committed unholy sins in the following years, leaving my spirit without peace.
In March 2021, I was diagnosed with lung cancer, which was difficult and unfair to accept, as I had not yet enjoyed my retirement benefits nor had I witnessed the establishment of families for my children.
Later, I realized that my mind was spinning over myself, but not a thought of God. I had committed to serving on the podium after retirement, something I felt was unlikely to be completed in two years because I hadn't practiced my devotional life in years or dedicated my life to Jesus.
After my first hospitalization for chemotherapy, I found that my condition had deteriorated. I turned to pray, "Lord, regardless of the time you let me live, I will keep my promise to you, strive to maintain my spiritual practices, and be ready to serve you as long as I live."
In that month, the price of anti-cancer drugs was greatly cut, and they were covered by medical insurance. I felt filled with the Holy Spirit. I rarely prayed, but at that time, I prayed, confessed my sins, and expressed gratitude. Two months later, a follow-up test showed that the brain metastases had vanished. After I was discharged from the hospital, I continued to take medication while fervently praying for healing. Additionally, fellow believers also prayed for me. Later, it turned out that the tumor in my lung also disappeared.
After that, I established a worship chat group on WeChat. I invited some Christian women who had visited me. Among them were devout believers, from whom I learned spiritual practices.
Beginning in May 2021, I insisted on writing a morning prayer and engaging in devotional practices every morning until the end of March the following year.
At the same time, I led Bible studies in the chat group twice a week. Before each study, I dedicated one to two days to thorough preparation, constantly reviewing information and praying. I would first comprehend the scriptures myself, understand every keyword, and connect the scriptures to real-life situations.
In the past few years, as I ventured out for work, my focus was on material pursuits, with the pride of life deep within me. After the 2022 Spring Festival, I applied for a job at a medical aesthetics institution in Guangxi Province, but my motivation for working altered due to tense relationships within my marriage and with my children. As a result, I had to leave home and venture out into the world on my own again. The second motivation is my desire to acquire a luxurious car for an easier spread of the gospel, yet there was still the "pride of life."
In May of that year, I ended my work away from home and returned to my hometown, as my mother was ill and hospitalized. I know that the Lord didn’t grant me a luxurious car, but due to the epidemic and the increase in gasoline prices, a car was sold to me at a good price, which I attributed to the grace of the Lord. At the same time, I resumed deepening my spiritual practice at home.
(The article was originally published by the Gospel Times and the author is a Christian in Jiangsu.)
- Translated by Poppy Chan
The Lord Is the God of Healing—Testimony of Terminal Cancer Patients
