Editor's Note: The passage is the vision of a sister who used to be a prostitute. Now she has become a Christian and daughter of God. She is willing to spread the gospel of God even though she still cares about comments from other people. Her testimony and story are as follows:
My Family
I was born in the 1980s in a reformed family. My family was harmonious and everyone treated me well. Chinese are introverted and not good at expressing their feelings. Although we were not rich, we lived a decent life.
My father was an ordinary worker. My mother married my father when I was two years old. My mother was a housewife, taking care of the whole family. My two brothers are my father' children with his ex-wife. My whole family was atheistic and didn't believe any region. My father said he only believed in himself, so he worked hard for our family.
Rebellious Girl
After I entered junior high school, my father quitted his job and started a business in order to provide a better life for our family. My mother also helped him all day long. They left the house early in the morning and worked late into the night. They seldom stayed with me.
I was gradually tired of school and started to hang around with a gang of youths. Many boys chased after me so I began to notice the love between men and women. I paid little attention to my study and was drunk in romance.
Once upon a time my boyfriend broke up with me. I wrote it in my diary. My mother happened to read it and laughed at me. My heart was hurt, although I know she was not on purpose. She just cared about me in the wrong way.
I didn't listen to my parents and often let them down. My father told me that they were not my natural parents. I was transferred to another school where my natural father worked as a teacher. I felt that I was abandoned so I was more rebellious. I still ignored my study even in my natural father's school. I often skipped class and gave myself tattoos.
My natural father gradually found that he couldn't discipline me, so I returned to my nursing father 's home and was transferred to the county' s another secondary school. One day my natural father came to visit me at school, but I ignored him. He had been a stranger in my eyes.
On that day when I came home from school, I saw my natural father sitting in our home. I didn't know what he was discussing with my nursing father. I hated them. My self-pity and inner rebellion made me even more reluctant to study.
My personality was gradually distorted and went to extremes. I didn't listen to any word of my parents. I went against their ideas on purpose. Finally, I dropped out of school.
After dropping out of school, I wandered around my hometown for a summer vacation. My nursing parents sent me to a private high school with their money. Now I understand that they really loved me. However, I was not aware of their love when I was a teenager.
I decided to study hard in the high school and try my best to enter the university. However, former friends still contacted me. I started to skip class and mixed with them again. The school asked me to leave. I completely hurt my parents' hearts.
My brother came to pick me up from the school. On our way home, he denied that I was his sister in front of his friends. I felt shamed and despised.
I was found pregnant later on. My mother took me to abort. They had a talk with my natural parents about my problems. None of them was willing to take care of me.
I knew I was disliked. Finally, they decided to take me to my natural parents' house because many guests often went to my nursing parents' home. It was a shame to let others know about the abortion.
Although my body recovered health after half a month, but their attitude towards me has made my heart dead.
I started smoking. In addition to daily conversation, I almost had no communication with my parents. I concealed my heart.
I knew that I was not a good girl. No one would like such a shameless girl. But I still wanted to be loved and cared about. I hoped for correct guidance.
Escape Arrangement of My Fate
Parents were also worried about my future and they arranged a blind date for me. I was at a loss and didn't know what to do.
The man I was dating with was not bad in every way. I tried to accept the arrangements of my fate and agreed to marry him.
However, I began to think of my life seriously. I didn't want to marry a man who I didn't love. I decided to go out and have a look at the outside world.
I let my parents reject the man and returned the engagement gifts. I was grateful to my parents since they never forced me. They respected my decision and gave me freedom to choose my life.
In the summer of 2004, I was at the age of 18 and got my ID card. I took some money and said goodbye to my parents. I left my hometown and went alone to another city. I want to decide my life, although I didn't know where to go and how the future would be.
编者按：这是一个曾为妓女的姊妹为主做的见证，她如今得蒙进入神的国，在被拯救后还参与了教会事奉，尽管她还在乎别人的眼光，但她也愿意不断为主传扬福音。以下为她的见证全文：
1、我成长的家
在一个小县城里，80后的我成长在一个来自三个不同家庭的人组成的5口之家，虽然如此我并没有受到不好的对待，相反家人都很和睦，然而因着性格原因，或许中国人的感情表达确实比较内敛，彼此交流就不太敞开。一家五口的生活，虽然不富裕但却也过得去，很普通很平凡。
父亲是普通的工薪阶层，母亲是在我2岁多再婚嫁给父亲来到这个家里，并且她为了照顾还小的我辞了工作成为全职家庭主妇，两个哥哥是父亲与前妻的孩子，虽然都没有读大学但也算安排到当地一个好的岗位了。而最小的我，是在刚出生几天便被送到这个家庭里的。我在读小学的6年里还算顺利的度过。我们全家都是无神论，什么都不信。就像父亲说的只信自己，所以他为了这个家很努力。
2、叛逆少女
上学早的我到了1998年9月就进入初中，没过多久爸爸为了家里五口人的生活，暂停了单位工作，和妈妈一起做起生意，日夜劳碌，早出晚归，为我提前做好饭便出门了，没有太多的时间陪我，以至经常留我一个人在家里，那时哥哥们也都不在家，大哥成家已经搬出去了，二哥去了外地。
而正在读初中的我，父母也经常会用奖励来鼓励我更好的学习读书，可是到了初二后半学期我渐渐开始厌学，开始和班里的问题少年瞎混、逃学，在学校里有不同男孩告白追求我，使我在这时候开始注意到了男女感情，后来心思完全没有在学习上，经历了早恋、又失恋，妈妈在偶然一次偷看了我房间抽屉里的日记后，嘲笑我被男孩甩，我的心灵极其受到伤害，虽然我知道她不是故意，只是关心我用错了方式。
到了我上初三，或许因为我不听管教，经常让他们失望，父亲便告诉了我是从小被抱养的，我有我的亲生父母，就把我转学送到了在镇里亲生父亲所教书的学校。被送到这里后，我的逆反心理严重了，认为他们管不好我也不该将我送走，有种被放弃的感觉。在生父所在的学校，我不但没有好好读书，也是经常逃学，在学校谁惹着我了，便叫社会混混替我出头，我还给自己纹了身。
生父渐渐发现自己也管教不好我，又把我送回县城父亲家里，我转学到了县城的另一所中学。在校期间，我的生父突然一次到学校找我，我不懂他为什么要来找我，不是管教不了又把我送走了吗？我在学校没有理睬他，他在我眼里就是个陌生人而已。而那天我放学回家后，见到我的生父坐在我们家中。我不知道父亲和他有讨论什么，但这场景让我厌恶，他们或许在商议谁来带我。我讨厌他们，我的自怜以及内心的反叛使我更不愿读书，继续逃学和社会混混瞎混，变本加厉的叛逆。我的性格在这几次转学期间产生了极大的变化，渐渐被扭曲且开始极端化，他们说的一切话我都不听，并且反其道行之。结果最终没有参加中考，暂时辍学了。
辍学后在家游荡了一个暑假，父母出钱把我送进了一所私立高中（如今我明白我虽然不是他们亲生的，但他们是真心爱我为我好。只是青春期的叛逆使我当初根本无法意识到）。我原以为这次可以好好读书，甚至可能会考大学，可之前的狐朋狗友依然联系我，使我没能坚持做一个好学生，又逃学瞎混，这好像成了我的一种习惯，后来被学校劝退学。彻底伤了父母的心。
只读了一个学期的我，在2004年彻底辍学了。在我辍学那一天，没有血缘关系的哥哥到学校接我，在回家路上的车里他在朋友面前否认了我这个妹妹，说是亲戚家的孩子。是啊，多么丢人的事，谁也不愿承认，我被嫌弃了。
而我被接回家后，自己也不知道什么时候怀孕了，母亲发现我的肚子大了便带我去堕了胎。约了我亲生父母，双方坐在一起谈论我的问题，都说管教不了我，互相推让，看谁能管得住我。我被他们嫌弃了。最后决定将我送到亲生父母家里休养身体，因为在县城的家会经常来客人，被人发现会丢脸。过了半个月我身体恢复好了，生父便将我送回了县城。虽然我的身体恢复了健康，但是这一切以及他们对我的态度已经让我的心灵千创百孔。
自怜的我成了一名辍学青少年，整天无所事事游手好闲，学会了抽烟。和父母除了日常谈话，几乎不怎么交流，我的心被封闭起来，没人知道我在想什么，我自己也不知道。不过我明白我不是一个好女孩，没人会喜欢这样一个不知羞耻，逃学瞎混，又早恋又被人甩又堕胎的女孩。
我是一个不听管教的坏女孩，不过我渴望被爱，渴望得到关怀和正确的引导。
3、逃离“命运的安排”
父母为了我以后的日子，也担心怕我终日游手好闲不上学，会被左邻右舍说三道四，便安排了一次相亲好让我嫁人。茫然不知所措的我跟着去，对方的条件还算不错，我试着让自己接受眼前的这一切和这个人，接受命运的安排，后来就被他们定下这门亲事。
可这事定下没过多久，我不愿再见对方。我开始思想我的人生，难道就这样过一辈子吗？和这个我不爱的人结婚、生子、等老等死？这就是我的命运？我不甘心，我的人生到底该如何走下去？我要自己决定，外面的世界很大，我想出去看一看。后来我让父母回绝对方，取消了这门亲事，当初的订婚礼金礼品也让父母退还给了对方。在这件事上我一直很感谢我的父母，他们从不强迫我，而是让我自己做决定，这是给我的自由。
2004年夏季，18岁的我亲自跑了好几趟公安局办好了自己的身份证，带了些钱，告别父母，离开了那伴随我了18年的的小县城，独自去了另一个城市。逃离了‘命运的安排’……
我想要自己决定我的人生。虽然我不知道何去何从，未来会如何……
见证：妓女进了神的国（一）
Editor's Note: The passage is the vision of a sister who used to be a prostitute. Now she has become a Christian and daughter of God. She is willing to spread the gospel of God even though she still cares about comments from other people. Her testimony and story are as follows:
My Family
I was born in the 1980s in a reformed family. My family was harmonious and everyone treated me well. Chinese are introverted and not good at expressing their feelings. Although we were not rich, we lived a decent life.
My father was an ordinary worker. My mother married my father when I was two years old. My mother was a housewife, taking care of the whole family. My two brothers are my father' children with his ex-wife. My whole family was atheistic and didn't believe any region. My father said he only believed in himself, so he worked hard for our family.
Rebellious Girl
After I entered junior high school, my father quitted his job and started a business in order to provide a better life for our family. My mother also helped him all day long. They left the house early in the morning and worked late into the night. They seldom stayed with me.
I was gradually tired of school and started to hang around with a gang of youths. Many boys chased after me so I began to notice the love between men and women. I paid little attention to my study and was drunk in romance.
Once upon a time my boyfriend broke up with me. I wrote it in my diary. My mother happened to read it and laughed at me. My heart was hurt, although I know she was not on purpose. She just cared about me in the wrong way.
I didn't listen to my parents and often let them down. My father told me that they were not my natural parents. I was transferred to another school where my natural father worked as a teacher. I felt that I was abandoned so I was more rebellious. I still ignored my study even in my natural father's school. I often skipped class and gave myself tattoos.
My natural father gradually found that he couldn't discipline me, so I returned to my nursing father 's home and was transferred to the county' s another secondary school. One day my natural father came to visit me at school, but I ignored him. He had been a stranger in my eyes.
On that day when I came home from school, I saw my natural father sitting in our home. I didn't know what he was discussing with my nursing father. I hated them. My self-pity and inner rebellion made me even more reluctant to study.
My personality was gradually distorted and went to extremes. I didn't listen to any word of my parents. I went against their ideas on purpose. Finally, I dropped out of school.
After dropping out of school, I wandered around my hometown for a summer vacation. My nursing parents sent me to a private high school with their money. Now I understand that they really loved me. However, I was not aware of their love when I was a teenager.
I decided to study hard in the high school and try my best to enter the university. However, former friends still contacted me. I started to skip class and mixed with them again. The school asked me to leave. I completely hurt my parents' hearts.
My brother came to pick me up from the school. On our way home, he denied that I was his sister in front of his friends. I felt shamed and despised.
I was found pregnant later on. My mother took me to abort. They had a talk with my natural parents about my problems. None of them was willing to take care of me.
I knew I was disliked. Finally, they decided to take me to my natural parents' house because many guests often went to my nursing parents' home. It was a shame to let others know about the abortion.
Although my body recovered health after half a month, but their attitude towards me has made my heart dead.
I started smoking. In addition to daily conversation, I almost had no communication with my parents. I concealed my heart.
I knew that I was not a good girl. No one would like such a shameless girl. But I still wanted to be loved and cared about. I hoped for correct guidance.
Escape Arrangement of My Fate
Parents were also worried about my future and they arranged a blind date for me. I was at a loss and didn't know what to do.
The man I was dating with was not bad in every way. I tried to accept the arrangements of my fate and agreed to marry him.
However, I began to think of my life seriously. I didn't want to marry a man who I didn't love. I decided to go out and have a look at the outside world.
I let my parents reject the man and returned the engagement gifts. I was grateful to my parents since they never forced me. They respected my decision and gave me freedom to choose my life.
In the summer of 2004, I was at the age of 18 and got my ID card. I took some money and said goodbye to my parents. I left my hometown and went alone to another city. I want to decide my life, although I didn't know where to go and how the future would be.
Testimony: Prostitute Enters Kingdom of God (I)
