Sister S is often optimistic and positive in how she views life. She is also a patient with depression that I have been accompanying and working with. Today I would like to share with you how she was saved by God.
"You spend your life getting rid of what others want you to be to become who you really are." Sister S sent this text to the circle of her friends.
"God fully accepts and loves us as we are, and you only have to be true to yourself," I responded.
She quickly replied with a happy expression. Through the flowing of God’s beautiful love we are able to communicate joyously with each other. Thinking back to Sister S, who suffered from depression and six years ago was quite desperate, and then to see how God has brought healing into her life during these years, I am deeply moved and amazed by the wonders that God does!
Soap operas on TV often depict stereotypical stories of love and betrayal. This is what happened to sister S six years ago. The first time I heard her name was on Christmas Day six years ago. I was on a business trip and got a call from a pastor at 1:30 in the middle of the night, saying that two young sisters in his church attempted to commit suicide because of broken hearts. One broke up with her first boyfriend of many years and attempted suicide, the other was Sister S, who suffered the betrayal of her fiancé. He fell in love with her best friend and broke off the engagement. Sister S could not bear the blow and also attempted to take her life.
In the months that followed, Sister S suffered from depression. She attempted suicide several times, was taken to hospital and needed to stop working. Her mother often accompanied her to church meetings, and that’s where I approached them, thinking that as a shepherd I could help them.
I also suffered from depression but was healed by God. I often share my experience of being healed at weekend church healing and prayer meetings in the hope of inspiring many members who suffer from the same condition. They also came to me and listened to my experience about how I was saved by God.
Sister S's mother also asked me for some advice, and I did my best to help her by praying, working with God and accompanying the pastor and her mother. I told sister S and her mother to stick to Bible study, fellowship in the church and take the proper medication.
As a result, Sister S and her mother continued to attend healing and prayer meetings, group meetings, Bible studies, and receive pastoral counseling, in addition to medical treatment at the hospital. Soon, Sister S began to believe in God, and from then on, they never stopped in their efforts to get close to God. They were gradually healed in the love of the Father and grew up in the fellowship life of the church.
The first thing I did was to establish a relationship with her mother and her through home visits. I gradually came to know the situation of her family: her mother divorced when she was young, and the pressure of raising her daughter as a single parent was very great. Her mother had high expectations for her and tried her best to educate her. Sister S was very diligent and hardworking. She excelled in her studies. After studying overseas she returned to China and fell in love with her boyfriend. She was ready to get married, but suddenly there was the breakup with her fiancé. Sister S could not accept this fact. We observed that the daughter did not have the love of a father in her life. Because of not having a father figure she developed an image of a fantasy father. She believed that she needed to be self-reliant and at the same time protect her mother. She has always lived up to her mother's expectations. Some tough women are especially precocious and independent. From childhood to adulthood, Sister S has seen her father just several times. She grew up without the support of his love. Her mother has been influenced more by worldly culture, especially believing in the success and importance of science. We observed that Sister S showed excessive strength and hard work that was not typical for a girl of her age.
After attending many church healing services, she came to know that God's love is unconditional and saw God's glory in accepting and loving from the time we are conceived. In Psalm 139:13-18 you can see God loves us so much:
“For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.”
It is this fully accepted love that enabled Sister S to establish an intimate relationship with God and it was also an important turning point in her recovery from illness. Sisters are satisfied with the love of God since she hasn’t enjoyed the love of an earthly father. Sister S finally feels loved, secure and safe. She began to value her relationship with the Lord. This softened Sister S’s; she no longer had to pretend to be mature and strong. She doesn’t need to always protect her mom, and doesn't have to prove herself by being successful in the field of science. She can be her real self. She admitted her limitations. She admitted that she had a weak heart and that she was hurt because of her love for wrong people. She cried numerous times, and prayed for the love of God. She admits that she needed the support of God, and to learn to entrust burdens to God. She was freed from the clutches of Satan. Freed and relieved.
God also released her from the bitterness of her fiance's betrayal. When Jesus was crucified, he asked God to forgive those who had beaten, humiliated and spat at him. How could she have been hurt more than Jesus? After a long time of healing, the sister chose to forgive the man who had hurt her and make peace with God and man.
In this way, God began to heal her, healing her from the inside out, repairing her image of beauty that was created in the first place, and gradually healing her. I see more and more of her positive sharing on WeChat. She shares photos of her working out, photos after her return to work, and words of optimism. When we meet, I always see her beautiful smiling face.
I do not know how many more people are experiencing spiritual difficulties, like bruised reeds or smoldering lamps, bound by sin, crushed by circumstances, pierced by passion, bent by burdens, or crushed by disease. They are so discouraged that they cannot raise their heads.
The proof that Sister S was saved by God was that she had established a loving relationship with God, and that her inner faith in Jesus saved her. He will not put out any smoldering lamp.
-Translated by Nicolas Cao
S姊妹是一个经常输出积极，乐观，上进信息的姊妹，也是我一直陪伴和关注的抑郁症病友。今天和大家分享她被神救治的见证。
“人一生都在摆脱别人要你成为的样子，回到真实的自己。”S姊妹的圈文。
“神按照我们本相的全部，完全接纳并爱我们，你只需要做真实的自己。”我回应她。
她迅速回复一个很喜乐的表情，在主内我们有来自神的美好的爱在流淌，有喜悦美好的交通。回想六年前身患抑郁症绝望至极的S姊妹，这几年被神救治的过程，为神的奇妙作为内心感动、惊叹！
平日在电视偶像剧里看到的爱情背叛“狗血”的故事，没有想到六年前发生在了S姊妹身上。认识她是一个很特殊的情况下，我第一次听见S姊妹的名字，是在六年前的圣诞节，我正在外地出差，半夜一点半接到牧者的电话，说这天晚上教会就有两位年轻姊妹因为失恋自杀。一位是与多年的初恋男友分手自杀，另一位就是S姊妹遭遇未婚夫背叛，和闺蜜相爱，提出分手而悔婚，姊妹承受不了打击自杀。
随后的几个月时间里，S姊妹身患抑郁症，多次自杀被人发现，送到医院救治，也被迫停止工作。她的母亲常常陪伴她来教会聚会，我也接近她们，想和牧者一起可以帮到她们。
作为抑郁症病友，我被神医治痊愈。经常在教会周末的医治祷告会上分享被神医治的见证，希望可以鼓舞到多同样病情的肢体。他们也有主动找到我，听我讲被神救治的见证故事。
由此，S姊妹的妈妈也主动询问我一些经验，我也尽可能藉着祷告，与神同工，和牧者、她母亲一同来陪伴，帮助这位姊妹。我就告诉姊妹和她母亲，一定要恒切坚持读经、教会团契生活、用药三管齐下。
于是，姊妹和她母亲除了医院就医用药，就持续参加教会的医治祷告会、小组聚会、查经学习，接受牧者的辅导。很快，姊妹就决志信主了，从此，就没有间断地来亲近天父，在天父的爱中慢慢的被治愈，在教会团契生活里逐渐成长。
我与牧者、小组家人，首先与她们母女建立了关系，进行家访，渐渐了解到她原生家庭的情况：母亲很早离异，单亲抚养女儿的压力很大，她们相依为命。母亲对于女儿期望特别高，一路竭尽全力培养她，女儿很勤奋、很努力，学业优异，不但国内大学毕业，还到国外留学读完研究生。回到中国交往了男朋友，预备结婚之前，突然发生了变数，让女儿不能接受这个事实。我们观察到，其实，女儿一直从小缺失父爱，把自己幻想成父亲角色，不但必须自强自立，还要保护妈妈。她一直活在妈妈期待的样子，有些女汉子的强势性格，特别早熟和独立。姊妹从小到大没有见到父亲几面，没有父爱的依靠，母亲更多是受世界的文化影响，大部分是成功学的教导。因此观察到S姊妹表现出来的过度强大，拼搏不该是这样一个年纪的女孩该体现出来的。
在参加很多场教会医治特会之后，她渐渐晓得神的爱是完全接纳的爱，得见神的荣耀，也就是从创造时，母腹中就接纳和爱我们的本相。在经文诗篇139章13-18节领受到神如此的厚爱——
我的肺腑是你所造的； 我在母腹中，你已覆庇我。 我要称谢你，因我受造，奇妙可畏； 你的作为奇妙，这是我心深知道的。 我在暗中受造，在地的深处被联络； 那时，我的形体并不向你隐藏。 我未成形的体质，你的眼早已看见了； 你所定的日子，我尚未度一日， 你都写在你的册上了。 神啊，你的意念向我何等宝贵！ 其数何等众多！ 我若数点，比海沙更多； 我睡醒的时候，仍和你同在。
就是这一份完全接纳的爱，让姊妹与天父建立了爱的亲密关系，也是姊妹病情康复一个重要转机。姊妹在地上父亲没有得到的爱，在天父的爱里得到饱足。姊妹终于感受到，在主内是被爱的、有保障的、安全的、有价值的。这让姊妹内心柔软下来，不再伪装坚强，不需要假装成熟、强大，好保护妈妈，不用成功学证明自己，而是回到真实做自己，她承认自己有限，为自己真实感情受到的伤害，承认自己软弱的心，恸哭许多场，祷告恳求天父爱的甘霖降临干涸的灵里，承认需要天父的托起，学习把重担交托给天父。她被神从撒旦挟制中解放出来，轻省了，得到自由了。
神也释放姊妹因未婚夫背叛带来的苦毒，在她晓得耶稣钉死十字架前，请天父饶恕那些鞭打、羞辱、唾骂祂的罪人，同时姊妹觉得自己也是一个罪人，神都如此爱自己，饶恕自己的罪；也想到自己受到的伤害如何能够大过耶稣。相信耶稣的鞭伤可以医治她内心的伤痛，经过多次的医治，最后姊妹选择饶恕了那个伤害她的未婚夫，与神和好，与人和好。
如此这般，神就在姊妹的生命中展开抽丝剥茧的医治，从里到外的治愈她，神修复最初创造她荣美的形象，姊妹逐步康复了。在微信里看见她她越来越多的分享，她健身的照片，恢复工作后推广的照片，乐观心态的文字。相聚见面时，也总是看见她美丽的笑脸。
现今不知道还有多少这样人，处在灵命病危之际，犹如压伤的芦苇和将残灯火一样，他们被罪恶捆绑了，被环境压垮了，被情欲刺透了，被重担压弯了，被疾病压伤了。他们灰心丧气，抬不起头来。
S姊妹被神救治的见证，是她与天父建立爱的关系，内心对于耶稣医治的信心救了她，正如圣经以赛亚书42章3节说的：压伤的芦苇，他不折断；将残的灯火，他不吹灭。
Sister S is often optimistic and positive in how she views life. She is also a patient with depression that I have been accompanying and working with. Today I would like to share with you how she was saved by God.
"You spend your life getting rid of what others want you to be to become who you really are." Sister S sent this text to the circle of her friends.
"God fully accepts and loves us as we are, and you only have to be true to yourself," I responded.
She quickly replied with a happy expression. Through the flowing of God’s beautiful love we are able to communicate joyously with each other. Thinking back to Sister S, who suffered from depression and six years ago was quite desperate, and then to see how God has brought healing into her life during these years, I am deeply moved and amazed by the wonders that God does!
Soap operas on TV often depict stereotypical stories of love and betrayal. This is what happened to sister S six years ago. The first time I heard her name was on Christmas Day six years ago. I was on a business trip and got a call from a pastor at 1:30 in the middle of the night, saying that two young sisters in his church attempted to commit suicide because of broken hearts. One broke up with her first boyfriend of many years and attempted suicide, the other was Sister S, who suffered the betrayal of her fiancé. He fell in love with her best friend and broke off the engagement. Sister S could not bear the blow and also attempted to take her life.
In the months that followed, Sister S suffered from depression. She attempted suicide several times, was taken to hospital and needed to stop working. Her mother often accompanied her to church meetings, and that’s where I approached them, thinking that as a shepherd I could help them.
I also suffered from depression but was healed by God. I often share my experience of being healed at weekend church healing and prayer meetings in the hope of inspiring many members who suffer from the same condition. They also came to me and listened to my experience about how I was saved by God.
Sister S's mother also asked me for some advice, and I did my best to help her by praying, working with God and accompanying the pastor and her mother. I told sister S and her mother to stick to Bible study, fellowship in the church and take the proper medication.
As a result, Sister S and her mother continued to attend healing and prayer meetings, group meetings, Bible studies, and receive pastoral counseling, in addition to medical treatment at the hospital. Soon, Sister S began to believe in God, and from then on, they never stopped in their efforts to get close to God. They were gradually healed in the love of the Father and grew up in the fellowship life of the church.
The first thing I did was to establish a relationship with her mother and her through home visits. I gradually came to know the situation of her family: her mother divorced when she was young, and the pressure of raising her daughter as a single parent was very great. Her mother had high expectations for her and tried her best to educate her. Sister S was very diligent and hardworking. She excelled in her studies. After studying overseas she returned to China and fell in love with her boyfriend. She was ready to get married, but suddenly there was the breakup with her fiancé. Sister S could not accept this fact. We observed that the daughter did not have the love of a father in her life. Because of not having a father figure she developed an image of a fantasy father. She believed that she needed to be self-reliant and at the same time protect her mother. She has always lived up to her mother's expectations. Some tough women are especially precocious and independent. From childhood to adulthood, Sister S has seen her father just several times. She grew up without the support of his love. Her mother has been influenced more by worldly culture, especially believing in the success and importance of science. We observed that Sister S showed excessive strength and hard work that was not typical for a girl of her age.
After attending many church healing services, she came to know that God's love is unconditional and saw God's glory in accepting and loving from the time we are conceived. In Psalm 139:13-18 you can see God loves us so much:
“For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.”
It is this fully accepted love that enabled Sister S to establish an intimate relationship with God and it was also an important turning point in her recovery from illness. Sisters are satisfied with the love of God since she hasn’t enjoyed the love of an earthly father. Sister S finally feels loved, secure and safe. She began to value her relationship with the Lord. This softened Sister S’s; she no longer had to pretend to be mature and strong. She doesn’t need to always protect her mom, and doesn't have to prove herself by being successful in the field of science. She can be her real self. She admitted her limitations. She admitted that she had a weak heart and that she was hurt because of her love for wrong people. She cried numerous times, and prayed for the love of God. She admits that she needed the support of God, and to learn to entrust burdens to God. She was freed from the clutches of Satan. Freed and relieved.
God also released her from the bitterness of her fiance's betrayal. When Jesus was crucified, he asked God to forgive those who had beaten, humiliated and spat at him. How could she have been hurt more than Jesus? After a long time of healing, the sister chose to forgive the man who had hurt her and make peace with God and man.
In this way, God began to heal her, healing her from the inside out, repairing her image of beauty that was created in the first place, and gradually healing her. I see more and more of her positive sharing on WeChat. She shares photos of her working out, photos after her return to work, and words of optimism. When we meet, I always see her beautiful smiling face.
I do not know how many more people are experiencing spiritual difficulties, like bruised reeds or smoldering lamps, bound by sin, crushed by circumstances, pierced by passion, bent by burdens, or crushed by disease. They are so discouraged that they cannot raise their heads.
The proof that Sister S was saved by God was that she had established a loving relationship with God, and that her inner faith in Jesus saved her. He will not put out any smoldering lamp.
-Translated by Nicolas Cao
Another Soul Saved by God
