In his 40s, Pastor G has served in an East China church for many years. He has been married for many years, with two healthy children — a boy and a girl.
However, Pastor G's life was not smooth sailing. He was issued a "Disability Certificate" by the authorities. He said he was born disabled, with his eyes, hands, mouth, and other parts lacking coordination. At the age of nine, he was taken by his parents to many hospitals for multiple examinations but was found with no diseases. Finally, the doctor diagnosed him with "developmental retardation". In his 20s, he got much better, although it was not easy for him to even eat and dress like others. Now, he would still occasionally not be able to coordinate his hands and mouth when eating.
Because of this, feeling deeply inferior and depressed before he believed in God, he had the idea of suicide many times but failed to make it in the end. Looking back, he felt that God was protecting him and keeping him alive to use him.
His parents never gave up on him in poor health. The love of his family became the key to his persistence. In his 20s, he became interested in Christianity because of a Christian father. Then he approached the church, which became a turning point in his life. Later, God led him on the road of serving, preaching, pastoring, discipleship, praising, praying, and evangelizing. Now he could "do everything", though he could do nothing at the very beginning.
God blessed his marriage, as he married a female believer and became a father, which G never dreamed of. In his opinion, "I am poor, not handsome, and disabled. Who would want to marry me?" Today, he and his wife serve God together.
G said with emotion, "Before having faith, I couldn't do anything, so I was rejected every time I looked for a job. Now, I can do everything, such as preaching, pastoring, developing, evangelizing, training, praising, and praying. There is quite a lot of grace so that I can do many things. If you work for the world, they don't want you, but God would never reject you. What the world doesn't want, God accepts it, and God will never abandon us."
He began to believe in the Lord when he was shocked by a Christian's view of life and death.
Before believing in the Lord, Pastor G was self-abased and felt that he was an idiot and a scum who could only eat but could not create value for society. Because of his low self-esteem, he was afraid of facing an unfamiliar environment, others’ eyes, going to public places, and was not willing to communicate with people outside the family.
He went out to apply for a job many times but was all rejected. The recruiters said verbally, "Just wait for our call." To put it bluntly, it actually means, "We don't think you can do anything, so get out of here." There were so many rejections. Pastor G felt that he really could not persist anymore, and life seemed to have come to an end.
Pastor G said that he could do nothing but collect garbage and waste products all day to make a living. During this time, Pastor G met a young man, who was ten years younger than him. Suddenly one day, this young man died. After hearing the news, Pastor G said that he could not accept it at all as the boy was tall and strong, and looked very healthy. Why did he suddenly pass away?
After a short time, Pastor G heard another piece of news. The boy's mother also died. Pastor G thought it was time to go to his home and comfort his father. He felt that his father must have been in great pain.
Arriving at his house and before entering, Pastor G heard his father singing in the room. Pastor G said, "I didn't understand it. Was this man crazy? His son died, and so did his wife. He must be crazy because he can't withstand so many blows. Otherwise, how can he sing in such pain?" Later, the father told Pastor G, "My wife and child have been taken away by Jesus, and they are reunited in heaven." The father described to Pastor G how beautiful heaven is. As his wife and children are gone, he is looking forward to seeing his family again in heaven one day.
Pastor G said, "It's the first time that I saw someone singing in the sorrow and pain of losing his family. It's very difficult, even incredible. Then I found that I have been looking for something, an answer, the ultimate love and the meaning and value of my life."
Pastor G did not immediately decide to follow Jesus because of this incident, but his mind suffered a great impact and had the foundation for his later faith.
Pastor G said that before he came to Christ, what kept him going, strong and courageous was the love of his father and mother, and the support of his brothers and sisters. Every time when he wanted to commit suicide, he thought of his family. Such love kept Pastor G from committing suicide, but could not get him out of a terrible state.
January 17th, 1999 is a decisive day for Pastor G. He came to the church for the first time on the invitation. Actually, Pastor G did not want to go because he knew that there were many people in the church, and he felt inferior then. But after many times of invitations, Pastor G finally came to the church, and was moved. He made a determined prayer and decided to become a Christian.
God always gives people more than they want or think. Pastor G would never have thought that he not only became a Christian but also grew to become a pastor later, leading many people to return to the Lord.
- Translated by Oliver Zuo
G牧师今年40多岁，在华东一城市教会服事多年，也已进入婚姻多年，现在有两个健康的孩子，一个男孩一个女孩。
不过，G牧师人生并非一帆风顺的。他有国家正式发放的“残疾人证”。他介绍说，自己生下来就是残疾，眼睛、手部、嘴部等部位不太协调，九岁的时候就被父母带去多家医院检查过多次，但是查不出任何疾病来，最后医生给他定的是“发育迟缓”，直到自己20多岁，虽然已经好了很多，但对很多人来说吃饭、穿衣最简单的事情在他那里仍旧是并不太容易的事情，现在偶尔他吃饭也会出现拿着筷子的手和嘴巴不协调的时候。
正是因为这样的情况，G牧师在信仰以前，曾经因为自身残疾而深感自卑和抑郁，好多次都有轻生的念头，但是最终都没有成功实施。回过头来回顾的时候，他觉得是神在保守自己并且让如此”特别“的自己存活下来就是为了在以后能够使用他。
虽然身体不好，但是父母从未放弃他，家人的爱成为他坚持长大的关键。20多岁时，他因着认识一个基督徒父亲而开始对信仰感兴趣，随后走近了教会，第一次进入教会就成了人生的转折点。随后，上帝带领他走上服事路，讲道、牧会、门徒训练、赞美、祷告、传福音……从最开始的一个不会到现在的“凡事都能做”。
并且上帝祝福了他的婚姻，他与一姊妹相识相恋，结婚生子，成为父亲。这是G牧师做梦都不敢想的事情。因为在G牧师看来，“自己又没钱又不帅，而且还有残疾，有谁会愿意跟这样的人结婚呢？” 今天，他和妻子一起服事。
G牧师感慨地说：“信主以前我什么都不会，所以才每次找工作都会被别人拒绝。可是现在，我现在什么都能干，讲道、牧会、开拓、传福音、训练门徒、赞美、祷告……数算一下，恩赐还挺多的，很多事情我都可以做了。给人干的话，人不要你。但是给上帝干，什么都不会耽误。人不要的，上帝都要，上帝绝对不会嫌弃我们。”
他开始信主是被一个基督徒的生死观震撼了。
信主之前，G牧师非常自卑，觉得自己就是一个白痴和败类，只会吃饭，而不能够为社会创造价值。因为很自卑，害怕面对陌生的环境，害怕别人看自己，害怕去人多的地方，不愿意跟家人之外的人有什么交流。
那时候也出去找工作应聘了很多次，但是最后结果都被打回来了。那些招聘人员他们口头上说的挺好听的：“你回去等我们的电话就可以了。”说难听点其实就是”我们认为你什么也不会，赶紧给我走人。“ 这样被拒绝的次数太多了，那时候G牧师觉得自己实在是走不下去了，人生仿佛来到了尽头一样。
G牧师说他那时候别的事情也做不了，只能整天捡垃圾、收废品，以此为生。在此期间G牧师认识了一个小伙子，这个小伙子很年轻，比他小十多岁。可是突然有一天，这个小伙子就去世了。听说了这个男孩去世的消息以后，G牧师说他完全接受不了——那个男孩长得又高又壮，看起来健康的很，怎么突然就没有了呢？
又过了一小段时间，G牧师又听说了一个消息——这个男孩的母亲也去世了。G牧师当时就有一种想法，要去到这个男孩家里，安慰一下他父亲。那时候G牧师觉得他的父亲一定会非常痛苦吧
G牧师到了他家，还没有进门，在院子里面就听见他父亲在房间里面唱歌。G牧师说”那时候我非常不理解，觉得这个人是不是疯了？儿子也没了，妻子也没了，这个人肯定是经受不住这么多打击，疯了。要不然，这么痛苦，怎么可能会唱歌呢？“ 后来，他就给G牧师说，”现在，我的妻子和孩子都被耶稣带走了，在天国里面他们重新相聚。“ 这位父亲又给G牧师讲了天国是何等的美好。因此，虽然自己的妻子和孩子都走了，但是在他盼望着自己有一天能够在天上重新和家人相聚。
G牧师说，"我第一次见到有人在妻离子散的悲剧和痛苦中还能够歌唱，这是非常不容易甚至可以说是不可思议的事情。那个时候我就发现，其实我也一直在寻找着一些什么，寻找着一个答案，寻找着一种终极的爱，寻找着我的人生的意义和价值。“ （==当summary）
这件事情并没有让G牧师立即决志信主，但是却让他的心灵受到了极大的冲击，为后来信主奠定了基础。
G牧师说，在自己信主之前，能够让他坚持下来的、给他力量和勇气的就是他妈妈的爱、爸爸的爱，还有哥哥弟弟他们的支持。每次，想要自杀的时候，就会想起来家人。这样的来自家人的爱让G牧师没有自杀，却无法让他从糟糕至极的状态中走出来。
1999年1月17号，对G牧师来说这是一个决定性的日子。G牧师第一次来到了教会，是被一个人邀请并且带到教会的。其实原本G牧师是非常不想去的，因为知道教堂里有很多人，那时候自己很自卑。但是架不住多次的邀请，最终G牧师还是硬着头皮第一次来到了教会，而且还受到感动，做了决志祷告，立志成为一名基督徒。
上帝给人的总是超乎人的所求所想的。相信那时候G牧师绝对不会想到，他不但就此成为了一名基督徒，更是在日后成为了一名牧师，带领许多人归主
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见证|一位80后残障牧师的恩典人生路（一）：信主
In his 40s, Pastor G has served in an East China church for many years. He has been married for many years, with two healthy children — a boy and a girl.
However, Pastor G's life was not smooth sailing. He was issued a "Disability Certificate" by the authorities. He said he was born disabled, with his eyes, hands, mouth, and other parts lacking coordination. At the age of nine, he was taken by his parents to many hospitals for multiple examinations but was found with no diseases. Finally, the doctor diagnosed him with "developmental retardation". In his 20s, he got much better, although it was not easy for him to even eat and dress like others. Now, he would still occasionally not be able to coordinate his hands and mouth when eating.
Because of this, feeling deeply inferior and depressed before he believed in God, he had the idea of suicide many times but failed to make it in the end. Looking back, he felt that God was protecting him and keeping him alive to use him.
His parents never gave up on him in poor health. The love of his family became the key to his persistence. In his 20s, he became interested in Christianity because of a Christian father. Then he approached the church, which became a turning point in his life. Later, God led him on the road of serving, preaching, pastoring, discipleship, praising, praying, and evangelizing. Now he could "do everything", though he could do nothing at the very beginning.
God blessed his marriage, as he married a female believer and became a father, which G never dreamed of. In his opinion, "I am poor, not handsome, and disabled. Who would want to marry me?" Today, he and his wife serve God together.
G said with emotion, "Before having faith, I couldn't do anything, so I was rejected every time I looked for a job. Now, I can do everything, such as preaching, pastoring, developing, evangelizing, training, praising, and praying. There is quite a lot of grace so that I can do many things. If you work for the world, they don't want you, but God would never reject you. What the world doesn't want, God accepts it, and God will never abandon us."
He began to believe in the Lord when he was shocked by a Christian's view of life and death.
Before believing in the Lord, Pastor G was self-abased and felt that he was an idiot and a scum who could only eat but could not create value for society. Because of his low self-esteem, he was afraid of facing an unfamiliar environment, others’ eyes, going to public places, and was not willing to communicate with people outside the family.
He went out to apply for a job many times but was all rejected. The recruiters said verbally, "Just wait for our call." To put it bluntly, it actually means, "We don't think you can do anything, so get out of here." There were so many rejections. Pastor G felt that he really could not persist anymore, and life seemed to have come to an end.
Pastor G said that he could do nothing but collect garbage and waste products all day to make a living. During this time, Pastor G met a young man, who was ten years younger than him. Suddenly one day, this young man died. After hearing the news, Pastor G said that he could not accept it at all as the boy was tall and strong, and looked very healthy. Why did he suddenly pass away?
After a short time, Pastor G heard another piece of news. The boy's mother also died. Pastor G thought it was time to go to his home and comfort his father. He felt that his father must have been in great pain.
Arriving at his house and before entering, Pastor G heard his father singing in the room. Pastor G said, "I didn't understand it. Was this man crazy? His son died, and so did his wife. He must be crazy because he can't withstand so many blows. Otherwise, how can he sing in such pain?" Later, the father told Pastor G, "My wife and child have been taken away by Jesus, and they are reunited in heaven." The father described to Pastor G how beautiful heaven is. As his wife and children are gone, he is looking forward to seeing his family again in heaven one day.
Pastor G said, "It's the first time that I saw someone singing in the sorrow and pain of losing his family. It's very difficult, even incredible. Then I found that I have been looking for something, an answer, the ultimate love and the meaning and value of my life."
Pastor G did not immediately decide to follow Jesus because of this incident, but his mind suffered a great impact and had the foundation for his later faith.
Pastor G said that before he came to Christ, what kept him going, strong and courageous was the love of his father and mother, and the support of his brothers and sisters. Every time when he wanted to commit suicide, he thought of his family. Such love kept Pastor G from committing suicide, but could not get him out of a terrible state.
January 17th, 1999 is a decisive day for Pastor G. He came to the church for the first time on the invitation. Actually, Pastor G did not want to go because he knew that there were many people in the church, and he felt inferior then. But after many times of invitations, Pastor G finally came to the church, and was moved. He made a determined prayer and decided to become a Christian.
God always gives people more than they want or think. Pastor G would never have thought that he not only became a Christian but also grew to become a pastor later, leading many people to return to the Lord.
- Translated by Oliver Zuo
Testimony of Disabled Millennial Pastor: Part I
