A worship leader shared that during these ten years of worship service, what has improved are not only his worship-leading skills but also his state of mind.
A male believer named Zhao Wei went to study in a worship school after he left his parents when he was very young. After graduation, he participated in a worship ministry in East China. He shared the journey of his heart over the past ten years with the Christian Times, an online Chinese Christian newspaper.
The narrative is in the first person.
I have changed after so many years of service. In the past, I sometimes even thought of myself as God. A man once came up to me and asked for my assistance because his child had failed the exam at the worship school. In the past, I would say, "No problem; I will talk to the president."
However, this is no longer the case. I would ask, "What was your motivation for studying? Why did you want to learn to worship even when you didn't pass the test?" Then I would end up saying, "I'm sorry, I can't do that." Because I don't think I'm God, who is great. We serve God, not anyone else, and we don't need to please the people.
Chinese people actually have many difficulties with teamwork. I have also participated in the service of many teams over the years, but I find it difficult. Almost every team has problems with coordination and cooperation.
When I was serving in a team, there were more than a dozen full-time worship workers who were paid and well-treated. Every evening after the gathering, I would buy midnight snacks for them, but then I found that they were getting more and more dissatisfied. For example, when we got 500 yuan after training others, I gave all the money to them. For example, each one had 100 yuan, but I didn’t keep any. I thought I was doing the best I could, but they felt they deserved to receive the food and the money, and even some people were discontent.
A pastor advised me not to feel responsible for other people's problems. A member who got 100 yuan was not satisfied, thinking 100 yuan or 200 yuan was not too much. The pastor said it was his problem, not mine. He let me not take on his problem and blame myself because I didn’t love or serve him enough.
The pastor asked me to do what I should do and not get involved in other people's problems. His words help me in my subsequent service, even the current service.
When I just came back to serve in my hometown, some people said that I was too young to do well. I thought I had the time and energy to do more things when I was young. They pointed the finger of blame at me and didn’t do anything, saying that I couldn't complete it. I didn’t think these Christians were doing the right thing.
Therefore, now I hope to move forward in harmony with many staff members. It is hard to develop well when we work alone or in individual teams. I do not believe that one person can fulfill the Great Commission.
Each person is uniquely gifted by God. If a church leader is broad-minded, he doesn’t focus on other church workers’ abilities but cares about whether they serve God or the church faithfully. If a leader is open-minded enough to accept people, the church can continue to revive and develop.
- Translated by Abigail Wu
华东一个参与敬拜赞美服事十多年的男信徒分享，在这十年期间改变和提高的不止是敬拜技术，更包括他的心境。
赵卫弟兄很年轻的时候就离开了自己的父母，前往一所敬拜学校学习。毕业以后在华东一个地方参与敬拜赞美服事。 他向中国一网络基督教报纸基督时报分享了他在这十余年中的心路历程。
以下内容为赵卫弟兄的口述分享：
经过了这么多年的服事，我自己的想法或者说心境也有很多的改变。以前有时候甚至会把自己当作上帝。之前曾经有一个人找我，他的孩子想要读敬拜学校，但是没有顺利通过考试，让我给他帮忙。以前的话，我就会说“没问题，可以的，我跟校长说一下。”
可是，现在不是这样了。我会问，“你的动机是什么？你为什么想学习敬拜，而且还是在没有通过考试的情况下？”最后我可能就会说：“对不起，我不能这么做。”因为我觉得自己不是上帝，我也没有那么大的本事。我们服事的是上帝，而不是任何人，也不想取悦人。
中国人其实在团队配合上存在着许多的障碍。我这么多年也曾经参与过好多个团队的服事，但是觉得很难，几乎在每一个团队里面在配合、合作上都有问题。
以前在一个团队里面服事的时候，有十多个专职做敬拜的全职同工，那个时候大家都有工资，待遇还算好的。每一次晚上聚会结束以后会买夜宵给大家吃，但是后来我发现大家越来越不满意。比如出去给别人上课，得到了500块钱，我会把这500块钱全部分给大家，比如每个人100块钱，我自己一分钱都没有。我觉得自己已经尽力做好了，但是他们觉得给他们买吃的，给他们钱，这些都是他们应得的。
一位牧师说你不能把别人的问题加在你自己身上。比如，有一个成员得到了100块钱，并不满意，认为100块、200块的算什么啊？牧师说这是他自己的问题，而不是你的问题。不要把他的问题放在我自己身上，让我惩罚自己——会想是不是我的爱心不够，或者是我没有服务好他们？
对方的问题就是对方的问题，你做到自己该做的那就可以了。这次牧师的安慰对我之后的服事包括现在的服事起到了重要的作用。
我刚刚回来家乡服事的时候，其实也有一些人说他这么年轻，能够做什么呢？
我想其实正因为年轻，有时间和精力做更多的事情。他自己没有去做，可是却对去做事情的人指指点点，说别人做不成，这绝对不应该是健康基督徒的做法。
所以，现在我们希望能够跟很多的同工一起和睦的往前面走。如果个人或者单个团队的话，就只能够单打独斗，这样很难有很好的发展。一个人是完成不了大使命的。
每个人都有上帝给予的能力。如果一个教会领袖他的格局和心胸是很宽阔的，他不在乎其他教会同工的能力有多么强，他只在乎同工能不能忠心服事上帝和教会。这样的领袖就有足够的心胸来接纳人，这样的时候教会就能够不断的复兴和发展。
华东一敬拜服事者:十多年当中成长和改变
A worship leader shared that during these ten years of worship service, what has improved are not only his worship-leading skills but also his state of mind.
A male believer named Zhao Wei went to study in a worship school after he left his parents when he was very young. After graduation, he participated in a worship ministry in East China. He shared the journey of his heart over the past ten years with the Christian Times, an online Chinese Christian newspaper.
The narrative is in the first person.
I have changed after so many years of service. In the past, I sometimes even thought of myself as God. A man once came up to me and asked for my assistance because his child had failed the exam at the worship school. In the past, I would say, "No problem; I will talk to the president."
However, this is no longer the case. I would ask, "What was your motivation for studying? Why did you want to learn to worship even when you didn't pass the test?" Then I would end up saying, "I'm sorry, I can't do that." Because I don't think I'm God, who is great. We serve God, not anyone else, and we don't need to please the people.
Chinese people actually have many difficulties with teamwork. I have also participated in the service of many teams over the years, but I find it difficult. Almost every team has problems with coordination and cooperation.
When I was serving in a team, there were more than a dozen full-time worship workers who were paid and well-treated. Every evening after the gathering, I would buy midnight snacks for them, but then I found that they were getting more and more dissatisfied. For example, when we got 500 yuan after training others, I gave all the money to them. For example, each one had 100 yuan, but I didn’t keep any. I thought I was doing the best I could, but they felt they deserved to receive the food and the money, and even some people were discontent.
A pastor advised me not to feel responsible for other people's problems. A member who got 100 yuan was not satisfied, thinking 100 yuan or 200 yuan was not too much. The pastor said it was his problem, not mine. He let me not take on his problem and blame myself because I didn’t love or serve him enough.
The pastor asked me to do what I should do and not get involved in other people's problems. His words help me in my subsequent service, even the current service.
When I just came back to serve in my hometown, some people said that I was too young to do well. I thought I had the time and energy to do more things when I was young. They pointed the finger of blame at me and didn’t do anything, saying that I couldn't complete it. I didn’t think these Christians were doing the right thing.
Therefore, now I hope to move forward in harmony with many staff members. It is hard to develop well when we work alone or in individual teams. I do not believe that one person can fulfill the Great Commission.
Each person is uniquely gifted by God. If a church leader is broad-minded, he doesn’t focus on other church workers’ abilities but cares about whether they serve God or the church faithfully. If a leader is open-minded enough to accept people, the church can continue to revive and develop.
- Translated by Abigail Wu
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